Frost in Morrowind

Edward Frost's time in Morrowind has come to an end; but his struggles are recorded here for any to read. A year in the making, and spanning one hundred and fifty chapters… Violence, suspicion, loss, betrayal, revenge, power with a price, a fight for survival, ages-old mysteries... all thrust in the way of Edward Frost, a man simply trying to rebuild his life.

Chapter 1 can be found here.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Epilogue: Everything, everything

Six years have passed since the night I died. Truly died; not the half-death of vampirism.

You might ask how it is that I can be telling this story if I am dead and my body destroyed. That is a very good question, and I believe, Antony, that now is the time to reveal what has been happening these past few months - and to reveal your part in this. It will add a nice twist in the tail of the tale, so to speak. I think, though, that it would be best to leave this in my own words, thankyou Antony. This is my story, after all.

As you of course know - but the reader does not - I have been visiting you nightly, through the body of your dear brother, and telling you my story. Yes: I know that he finds it unpleasant, Antony, but as you know by now, it does not harm him. And you know I can speak through him, but not do much else: otherwise you can be sure that I would simply... 'inhabit' you or he and write all this down myself.

But no: I have needed you to write this down for me, because I am... a 'spirit' now, I suppose... for want of a better word, anyway. Although that might not be an accurate description; I believe that the magical forces that filled my mind and body during my time on Vvardenfell changed me somehow. The golden 'threads' woven into a link to the plane of magicka, the constant exposure to magical items that influenced my mind, the magicka leak inside my body, the magical, vampiric blood of the Aundae family in my veins... I could not even call my body my own anymore: that alien strength, grace and ability that swelled in my limbs - the never-ending surge of magicka... even my face was lost, and replaced with that of a stranger! It was all the warping influence of magicka - I'm sure of it.

I believe my mind became so intrinsically meshed with the flows of magicka that when my body was destroyed, my mind remained... to float along in the tides of magicka. I call them 'tides' because it seems that I cannot 'do' very much during the day. The moons grant me power; as they empower the tide to ebb and flow. Hence why I visit you nightly...

Yes... I died, but my mind continued; in Aetheria, the plane of magicka. Perhaps my mind was already taken from my body long before I died. Perhaps that is what happened when the crescent-moon emblem dove into my flesh. For the longest time after I died, I did not know that I still... existed. Tell me: when you dream, do you feel - or smell or taste - anything in your dreams? I never did: I only ever saw and heard things. Now, imagine a dream like that; only you cannot see or hear anything either. That is what it's like for me now, and that is why it took years for me realise that my mind is still... 'here': there is only thought now. (Except for when I inhabit your dear brother, Antony.)

Pure thought and knowing. I know when it is day, and when it is night. I know when people are nearby - and I know if they are happy, sad, or frightened. I know the piece of ground I cling to. I have to hold on to something, you see. This... place, Aetheria (the realm of the gods?) is just... too vast. There's no-one here! Or at least... I cannot find anyone. I was lost for so long... but some time ago - maybe a year or two - I found the ground; near the place I died. I 'crawled' away from there, for a long time; until I came to you here, in Cyrodiil - the province where I grew up. I had to leave Morrowind behind: I could not stand to be there anymore.

Morrowind...

I lost everything there. My home, my belongings, my place in the world, my friends, my life, my body... and my Sirilonwe... Everything... everything. Everything, everything!

And it was him! Matius! I will see him punished for this!


You have asked me - more than once - why I have you commit all this to paper; why I want these memoirs printed and published. I will answer you now - at the end - though I think it is obvious. I want the world to know why I did what I did. I would have people know the truth of what happened; in every last detail, so they can understand me and my actions.

Why does this matter if I am a mere spirit? I should think that that would be obvious too. Every passing night, I exert more control over your brother. Look! I can even make vague, pointless gestures now! How exciting. You and he need not worry, though; I'm beginning to think that his his body (and yours) are simply not suitable for my needs. Forgive me, but perhaps you and he lack the breadth of mind required for this sort of thing.

I will find someone, though. Someone I can take completely. I will return to the mortal world; and when I do, things will become very unpleasant for certain guilty parties... This is why it matters that people know the reasons for my actions.


I will return to the world - and my presence will be felt!

42 Comments:

Blogger Joseph said...

So... that's it; the very last one - the end of Frost in Morrowind. Wow: it's been quite a ride for me. I'm glad I was able to end on chapter 150; it seems like a good number to end on - and it also means that I've been writing this for almost exactly one year. :-) I'd like to thank all of you for reading, and for letting me know what you think in the comments section. Your words have been encouraging, inspiring, insightful and wonderful! You are the reason I kept writing and finally finished this thing.

I am sorry to upset people by ending the story, but the day had to come around. I always intended Frost in Morrowind to have a definite beginning, middle, and end; not to go on in perpetuity. This ending was actually planned since a long time ago (almost since the beginning of writing, actually); I didn't just get tired of it and decide to wind things up. :-)

I'm also sorry to have to say that I am not likely to write another story in this format. I knew before I began that it would be hard: and I was right. I actually swore to myself a number of times in the past year that I would never do anything like this ever again. Maintaining a regular release schedule (which I did without fail - yay me ;-)), plus consistent chapter-length, and (hopefully) consistently high-quality writing was very, very draining and difficult. So; no more serial fiction for me: at least not using a model even remotely similar to this one.

HOWEVER - and this is the good news; this is not the last free-to-the-public project I will do - and it is not the end of Frost's story. I mentioned this on one of the comments pages a while ago, but I'm planning a quest mod for Oblivion that continues his story. I actually began planning quest-structure and writing pieces of dialogue for it weeks ago; but there's another Oblivion mod I'm doing first, so I can get a handle on the dev tools before tackling something as important to me as the continuation of Edward's saga. :-)

The mod is called Hoarfrost Castle, and I will be adding information on it to my new personal website www.josephlollback.com quite soon, as work is already well underway on the mod.

Actually, I invite you all to come over to my website if you would like, because I've set up a forum in there for talking about Frost in Morrowind (among other things). It would make for a much easier place for it than these comments pages. And if you are interested in following my projects, then it is definitely the place to go.

I hang out on Canadian Ice & Howndog's Morrowind Forums under the alias Antistar - and I'm likely to post a Work-In-Progress thread for Hoarfrost Castle (and eventually, Frost in Oblivion as well) there, so you can probably catch me there, too.

Anyway, once again: thankyou all - very much.

- Joseph.

Monday, July 10, 2006 4:21:00 pm  
Anonymous Nyxalinth said...

Hi, Joseph

I've followed your stories since November of 2005. If I can do even half as good with my stories about Nyxalinth and her friends, I will have achieved something.

I look forward to your other projects, and I'll definately be paying a visit to your forums :)

If you're ever interested, my Nyxalinth stories along with others are on my livejournal.

Monday, July 10, 2006 4:54:00 pm  
Anonymous rarr said...

joseph, I'm really sad to see the end of Edward in serial fiction. I'm not sure that a mod will be able to do the character justice nearly as much as your writing can. Maybe you will consider doing more Edward writing in the future? Certainly not serial fiction - that's a very difficult thing to write consistently, but maybe something else?

Monday, July 10, 2006 4:58:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

joseph, thank you for this story, i am more than sure that if you would have created your own universe free of copyright, you would have been a very wealthy man.

Monday, July 10, 2006 5:02:00 pm  
Anonymous I'm a nerd hear my roar! said...

Thank you Joseph for the many nice hours infront of the computer.
well I'm looking forward to the mod and checking out the website.

Thanks again Joseph.

Monday, July 10, 2006 7:31:00 pm  
Anonymous Mebyon said...

All good things come to an end... I'll miss my evenings catching up with Frost. The was an epic piece of work Joseph, a huge 'thank you' from one of your fans. Now to bookmark your site!

Monday, July 10, 2006 9:44:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow. This is sad... I find it very sad. This is one of my favorite blogs, and, well..it's...over. Thank you Joseph.

Thank you very much...

-Noozooroo

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 2:03:00 am  
Blogger Moonike said...

hi,
i thank you too, Joseph, for all this wonderful reading!!!

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 2:59:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This was a very climatic ending. You knew exactlly when to stop with the maximum effect.
Thank you for everything and keep up the good work!

- Ahriman

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 6:25:00 am  
Blogger Blog-na said...

*tear*

That was an awsome ending...and the hints of a new beginning. I might read them all again or something. I want to thank Joseph for getting me back into Morrowind and into the rest of the Elder Scrolls series they really are great games.

It would be nice if when you start whatever you are planning for Oblivion you could make a post here as well.

Thank you for a great story and a good ride.

-End If Kris

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 7:24:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Joeseph, Thanks for writing one of my favorite daily reads for the past year! You're a great writer and I'm looking forward to your future work in an Oblivion mod. Ahhhh...now I'll have to read Frost's story all over again from the beginning! :) Thanks again, ed

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 8:38:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Thanks. You've done a great job.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 9:33:00 am  
Anonymous sab litath said...

so that's it. frost's adventure in morrowind is over. you wrote a truly wonderful story.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 12:23:00 pm  
Anonymous Person said...

Thankyou Joseph for sharing your gift with us. As you can see, many of us appreciate it and are very sad it's all come to an end. Myself included. It will be a very long time (if ever!) that I will forget about you and Edward Frost, the man I've come to know so well.

Again, Thankyou.

Yours Sincerely,

Daniel.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 1:18:00 pm  
Blogger Joseph said...

Thankyou very much, everyone! What you're saying means a lot to me. An awful lot, actually.

I must admit, though, that I want to hear more about what you all thought of the last chapter and the epilogue, as well.

I'm just a selfish one, aren't I? ;-)

- Joseph.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 2:40:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Personally, i found it a abrubt ending, but a fitting one with enough impulsivity to do the story true justice, and i like the little tid bits you added in the epilogue that alluded to a new begining, a begining that made me think "Avatar of Vengeance"

Tuesday, July 11, 2006 4:39:00 pm  
Anonymous Constant said...

Thank you Joseph for the great time reading Frost's adventures. You've done amazing work with the character, including Sirilonwe, Matius and all the other ones too. I actually felt shocked when I finished reading the last chapter... I don't remember when was the last time I really got to "know" the main character so well and it certainly did not feel nice when those imperial bastards just killed him cold-blooded. I don't know how you do it, but you made Edward's character alive - I've enjoyed reading about him, especially his changes as a vampire. I can't think of anything that I didn't like right now... it has truly been a great experience, thank you again.
It's good the epilogue explained some things. It's relieving to know that Edward's story does not "end" here. I'll definitely be looking forward for your Oblivion mod.

Best wishes to you.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006 2:08:00 am  
Anonymous Lord of Vas said...

Joseph,

While I am sad to see that this is the end, I just wanted to say you have an incedible gift and I wish for you the best. Thank you for a truly wonderful journey.

Sky

Wednesday, July 12, 2006 9:03:00 am  
Anonymous anondescriptname said...

Sad, but the story is complete now. Too often stories just fade away and are never finished.

Thursday, July 13, 2006 9:18:00 am  
Anonymous Raymond a.k.a. Lord Dnomyar said...

Comrade, what a grand ending for a grand tale. From a critical standpoint, it (the ending) felt a bit abrupt, but the epilogue fixed that up nicely, seeing as how Frost would NOT like to relive those last moments, where his love, his security, and essentially, his life were taken by force.
From a fans standpoint: That roxored my soxorz! w00t! It wuz kewl.
And so, in a rare moment of maturity from my part, congratulations for being so damned good at writing.

Thursday, July 13, 2006 2:26:00 pm  
Anonymous Matar said...

Wow that was preaty damn good. Frosty was kind of dumb though. I mean really! He a flippin king! Did he expect to live?

Hmmm, we need a mod for Morrowind were you an infinite amount of gurads. Five at a time, over and over agine.

I bet I could take over a castle full EASY.

I gain mana fast, my ring of mage craft helps with that alot. I can summon 5 golden saints at ONCE at have enough mana left over to cast Life drain spell that 50 damage per sec for 5 sec, area 100.. or 50. Something like that.

50 damage because even with 100 absorb you don't gain that much back that fast. It still takes as much time as with a 50 absorb and the 50 cost's less mana and has more time! =D.

Now, can anyone LOGICALY come to a concluion were frosty could beat an army of troops?

Give me time! I will figure it out I say!

Friday, July 14, 2006 11:54:00 am  
Anonymous anondescriptname said...

"In other news, Legion Commander Apelles Matius arrived in prison today to serve out multiple life sentences for a series of gruesome murders which went unsolved for years until his sudden confession months ago. Upon arriving in his cell Matius begain to vociferously recant his confession and proclaim that he had been framed by the late Edward Frost, executed years ago for the murder of King Helseth by a force led by Matius."


Just a random musing.
=)

Friday, July 14, 2006 4:25:00 pm  
Blogger Joseph said...

Thanks again everyone. :-)

Heh - very nice, anondescriptname.

On the possibly 'abrupt' ending; Raymond got it pretty much right about what I intended with that part.

Someone asked me to post a note here when I had some news available on my current mod project (Hoarfrost Castle). If anyone's interested, you can head over to my website (www.josephlollback.com) to check it out. There's an outline and some screenshots posted there.

- Joseph.

Friday, July 14, 2006 6:05:00 pm  
Anonymous rarr said...

joseph, maybe you should put up a page where the entries are listed in order rather than in reverse. New readers are always possible and having the epilogue first is a bit of a spoiler.

Saturday, July 15, 2006 2:32:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow, good job on the mod, Joseph, really good job. It looks like it was done by the Elder Scrolls team. Though (if you'll excuse me) Part of that is probably how much the TES Construction Set has been improved.

But it was you who made it all work.

-Noozooroo

Saturday, July 15, 2006 7:32:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

well now I know the first quest-based mod I will get for oblvion...once I actually get oblivion. :D thanks for all your hard work. up until I read the comments on this thing, I was going to suggest you continue the story of his revenge, but a mod of oblivion is just as good and in some ways better. work hard and no fan of this journal will be dissappointed

Sunday, July 16, 2006 7:43:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

=( I'm sad to seee it end, for it truly was a great story. Great ending though. I think ill read it a third time ^.^

Saturday, July 22, 2006 2:33:00 pm  
Anonymous Constant said...

Holy cow, I'm still not over this.

Saturday, October 21, 2006 10:33:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So I read the epilogue first, mainly because you told me not to :p

I will get through the rest though.

- AvalanchE -

Friday, December 01, 2006 11:12:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow, there have not been any posts here for a while, I just stumbled upon your story once again when I was bored and skimmed through it once more. Still... Great piece of work and I'm still sad it's over... also... what with your website? You haven't posted in a while...

Tuesday, April 03, 2007 2:34:00 pm  
Anonymous Shade Lockhart said...

I doubt anyone will be reading this in the near future, but I plan to write a Morrowind/Oblivion journal as soon as my PC is up and running. That could be a while, though, so can anyone suggest a good place to notify people? Don't worry how long after this post you reply, I'll certainly be coming back to this blog for a good few years; for my own personal reasons, but I'll still be coming.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007 11:49:00 pm  
Anonymous Mogrimm said...

Heh, well I am really late in reading this, but I am so glad I stumbled upon it! What a great story!

THANK YOU FOR SUCH A GREAT STORY!
I have read it start to finish in the span of about a week or so (which is saying a lot, because I tried to savor this story and not just rip through it!) and I have really enjoyed it!

You seriously have to keep writing..
Once again, thank you so much for a great story...it was awesome

-Mogrimm

Friday, September 21, 2007 11:02:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You know how "Frosty" dies, but says he will return?
What if he returned and took over the prisoner you play in Oblivion, or reincarnated, or something like that? So that would mean that Edward would start from scratch, but couldn't understand why he knew what he did know, till the end where he remembers his time in Morrowind.....
or maybe I should do that myself...

Tuesday, October 16, 2007 6:50:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey joseph i have to say this was a freakin awesome story, i read it a while back just now leaving a commment. couldnt stop reading it, anyway i was wondering if youve started the new hoarfrost castle story, and also for some reason my whenever i try going to ur website it says something like server cant fine adress or something... anyway you could help?

Friday, July 11, 2008 2:51:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sry bout the mistypes above im realy tired

Friday, July 11, 2008 2:52:00 pm  
Anonymous Robdemon said...

Im a new reader and in about a week i've gone from the start to the end... all I can say is WOW...

I enjoyed every bit of it and wished it didn't have to end...

But still...

Do you have any idea when your frost in oblivion mod will be out.(maybe its already out and i've missed it...)

Sunday, August 17, 2008 1:31:00 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

wow. i don't really have anything to add to what has already been said. i just want you to know that another person found your story and thought you did an amazingly good job with it. even if i did accidentally read the first telling sentence of the epilogue when i was still around chapter 30... but the fact that i bothered to read another 120 chapters after already knowing the ending is also a testament to how well-written the whole thing was.

congratulations and good luck in whatever your future projects may entail.

Sunday, September 28, 2008 3:54:00 pm  
Anonymous Casey said...

well, I may be almost four years late in discovering this masterpiece, but I am not at all sorry I did... in the week or so it took me to read Frost's adventures, I've grown quite attached. I'm very sad to see the end, and also somewhat perturbed that it seems your site is no longer up (I can't get to it, at any rate... a shame, I would've enjoyed looking through any other projects you've been persuing since the end of Frost in Morrowind).

You have a great gift, Joseph, as is evident in the words of your many fans who were attracted by your writing. This was a superb piece, on par with many stories published by professional authors, and certainly with that of Tim's blog (the bum didn't even finish his :p). I just might have to go back and read it a second time :)

so, thanks again for the hours of entertainment you've given me, and I really do hope to stumble across more of your work in the future. btw, has anyone ever told you you look like Seth McFarlane?

Friday, March 20, 2009 3:58:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well, I'm even later than this guy above me, and i still like it. Gotta say, i actually picked up that magic trinkets of tamriel after reading this, had never heard of it. (probably because it never got finished and stopped being updated in 06.) Pretty good job, neat story, pretty awesome end. Would have liked to see that oblivion continuation, but i doubt I'll ever see that. If for some strange reason you read this, thanks mate, you gave me hours of reading.

Saturday, September 05, 2009 2:08:00 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

<3

-Noozooroo

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 2:15:00 pm  
Anonymous J said...

I felt I should leave a small note as a (meager) tribute to this wonderful story.

Morrowind is still my favorite game of all time and it was simply a treat to see it brought to life by your talents. This is one to savor. Indeed, I paced myself so that I would not race through it. It is a testament to the quality of the writing that it kept me coming back for the month that it took me to read it all.

Thank you for leaving the story available for all to read. It truly is well done.

Saturday, October 16, 2010 4:00:00 am  
Blogger Levi Hughes said...

Ten long years after this story was written and I finally come across it. I've read many journals similar in form but incomparable in quality. I'm working on saving this in proper format to my laptop so that it can be a lasting inspiration and reminder, not only of how amazing this game is/was, but of true, wonderful storytelling.

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